The inside

It has been said, "to change the outside you must start from the inside."

Well, I think my life might be taking a turn! Last night I dreamed... and this dream was somewhat different then any dream I have ever had... It had many scenes and different people through out, but there was one thing that was constant throughout. Drugs! lol.

I have this itch and idea that I have not been able to shake, I want a lady friend. Not just any lady... one that, to me, is supra rad. Not necessarily a girlfriend, even though that would be amazing, but a lady whit whom our attraction was mutual.
Since I have never found that yet, and when I realize how old I am and how life moves, I get more and more anxious.... unfortunately its for not.
Lately, well, for the past months I have begun trying to change the things my mind and self yearn for... instead of wanting something so amazing, I have tried to subdue my heart and my feelings.
I begun by saying it; since I haven't found a female to give the world to, ill find something that will always be there for me, and I will give it the world... Let it live through me... can you guess my new love, my faithful, never-let-me-down-till-it takes-me-down love?

----/-------, if you've been reading you already know... (blame the partiot acts and usa news/ misinformation networks for my censorship)

In this dream/s one of the main drives was me connecting with my nuevo-luv. Throughout all of the different scenes, we would be together and I would do it and it would make me do amazing things! It seemed like everything, the plot/ characters and scenes were in the background but my beau was rite by my side... slow dancing to the fast pace of the world.
I didnt even think about ladies once... well, actually there is this one, who I ponder about.. but thats a new development.

Its so interesting, I have said it, now it was in my dreams... I wonder what is next... hopefully beautiful ladies and good times. lol.

It sucks being a romantic in a slow society.... Maybe one day it'll all make sense.

Keep up.