Bria's Interlude pt. II

Grum - Heartbeats from Brian McBlade on Vimeo.

the joy, the pain... The Glory

p.s. is this what love sounds like??!? Or maybe its just infatuation with epicness.

Thin Line

It is always just a thin line that separates. Genius and Insanity, Love and Hate, North and South... Sometimes it may only be one person that is that thin line...

As always, opportunity knocks... most of the times in forms you do not recognize. It is reaping what you have sewn.
Looking back @ my days I realize some of the opportunities that have passed me and what that missed opportunity has flourished into. I realize, or, can see that, many of great opportunities come through friends or from the seeds you have sewn in others lives. I am currently seizing this wonderful opportunity, given to me by my brethren, and as I began thinking about it my mind wandered... what would it have been like to take a similar chance earlier??
I realized, man, it is all so simple. You just have to be ready. I know the reason I didn't seize earlier opportunities was because I was not ready (or so I thought). Now I am back again with another start!?!? Isn't life one interesting piece of art?? Before I took my current life by the horns I was always questioning, is this the right track did I make a wrong turn back there somewhere??
I realize it was the right track, I was just over-thinking and undermining. Where are the Adderalls when you really need them??!

I think that's why I can't stop spreading love (its an innate characteristic in me!)to friends, family or whoever crosses my path. You never know when your reward will come, or in what form....

... its always that thin line between success and failure...


TIME IS IRRELEVANT [we can't control it]
GOD IS REAL [feel the wind]
and LIFE IS TO BE LOVED [f.e.p.o.]


"Its in my blood, to do madness."
-Dzia CD (thanks btnl!)

Aint that bouta b*t@#

So I am taking this supplement to try and counteract the effects my past lover has had on my body.... and I look it up today to only find out that it is making my heart stronger and everything... I didnt want all that, lol....
All the things I have been doing to speed this life up, and now I find out I have been recently messing up all that progress. Damn.

who woulda thought.

How I feel rite now

This song breaks my brain thoughts down completely. OH GODDAMMIT.



oh well, fuck it.

Dear Bottle...

I think we need a break [sad face]

"Im not like these fiendin niggaz, im too smart for all that...
but I am like them fiendin niggaz."

I think ive been to church as many times as I have been sober this year (2009), the crazy thing is I can count it on one hand. The even crazier thing is it may be less than 5....

Damn.

p.s. however long I will be away from you, I am going to miss you.

Daylight [for the dayman]

So... Since January I have been stuck on this girl. Not just stuck on her, I was infatuated with her, in lust for her, since January. It is now June... You would think that I would either be talking to this girl or she is some prototype female, considering its been six months.
Wrong. Wrong.


It was wierd, we were chillin for a week or two then she just hit me with the cold shoulder... I thought I would get over her but again, Wrong. Wrong.
I tried to erase her from my mind to soothe my heart but time and time again she would ease her way into my dreams, thoughts and even my dialogue. I had it bad....



Ive been awaken, made brand new!! I have to say, facebook, eased all my heartache. I surfed over to facebook and behold, my eyes witnessed the glory. I stumbled upon the most beautiful woman I have ever seen in a photograph. I now have a vision of what my wife will look like.
Lets get Brand New. She looked to amazing if I could I would shout it on the mountaintop of greatness the Lord has bestowed upon her. Gee whilikers.

New Again - Taking Back Sunday

OOOOH [gritting teeth]

I could put out there so much hate... but I was learned if you don't have anything nice to say than don't say anything @ all... I am here to speak life, love and blessing.
Just had to release.

[Un]Comfortable

Heartbreak...
Why does it continue to hurt me so...


...I guess its a good thing I still got my liquid lover..

Was it plymouth?
church?
could it be the district?
Is it me... I just want to be wanted....

The inside

It has been said, "to change the outside you must start from the inside."

Well, I think my life might be taking a turn! Last night I dreamed... and this dream was somewhat different then any dream I have ever had... It had many scenes and different people through out, but there was one thing that was constant throughout. Drugs! lol.

I have this itch and idea that I have not been able to shake, I want a lady friend. Not just any lady... one that, to me, is supra rad. Not necessarily a girlfriend, even though that would be amazing, but a lady whit whom our attraction was mutual.
Since I have never found that yet, and when I realize how old I am and how life moves, I get more and more anxious.... unfortunately its for not.
Lately, well, for the past months I have begun trying to change the things my mind and self yearn for... instead of wanting something so amazing, I have tried to subdue my heart and my feelings.
I begun by saying it; since I haven't found a female to give the world to, ill find something that will always be there for me, and I will give it the world... Let it live through me... can you guess my new love, my faithful, never-let-me-down-till-it takes-me-down love?

----/-------, if you've been reading you already know... (blame the partiot acts and usa news/ misinformation networks for my censorship)

In this dream/s one of the main drives was me connecting with my nuevo-luv. Throughout all of the different scenes, we would be together and I would do it and it would make me do amazing things! It seemed like everything, the plot/ characters and scenes were in the background but my beau was rite by my side... slow dancing to the fast pace of the world.
I didnt even think about ladies once... well, actually there is this one, who I ponder about.. but thats a new development.

Its so interesting, I have said it, now it was in my dreams... I wonder what is next... hopefully beautiful ladies and good times. lol.

It sucks being a romantic in a slow society.... Maybe one day it'll all make sense.

Keep up.

VOTE

Consider me voted bitch! Monday, 11/3/08, I got in line, waited and filled out that form!!!!
When I walked out of the judiciary square building on that cool, tranquil, fall day, to quote Kanye; I was feelin' better than some head on a sunday afternoon (I cant wait to know what that is like!!)/ better than a chick that say yes too soon....

I really live it.

WTF

ask and you shall receive....

Well, what the FUDGE is my steeze???Fudgity-frick-stik. What is my success?

On that note: My life in song



Im fudgin' lost... trying to be found... or maybe find myself...?



Help.

Surroundings: the catchup

I saw some ladies and/or manladies of the nite! It was scary and exciting both @the same time. These times have been soo tragic, and I do really mean tragic, that I am considering the biz.

Also, saw the new show Crash. Pretty interesting, very cheesy characters but they get into interesting situations! When I called it a nite, I had this super intense dream... It was so wild that typing it would do it no justice, [ill save it for a movie]! It was a super sad dream though, fill with miscommunication, realizing responsibility and blood evoking situations. Damn, it was one for the ages.

Aint it rediculous; I went to Yardfest @ HU and when the day was over I was super homesick. Man, I miss my fam soo much.

Being poor and alone... Fuckin sucks. [and, I do mean Fuckin.] Its crazy, I feel it building in my tear ducts, my emotions, they are just waiting for the event that will have them pouring out. It happened when I got robbed and I feel it coming on again... I wonder what its gonna be this time.

Fuck, I need some girls to dig me, singleness is, well one.

Its Only Been 10 days...

AND ALREADY IM WASTING AWAY.

So, I kicked it with this young lady two weeks ago... we were drinking and then she started all this "i like you" talk.
Me, being the gullible guy that I am took her words and believed them.

So she say's we should hang out again...

Now I texted her a few times, cuz u know, nowadays phone calls seem too forward for some...

So, I gotta text back one time and you know what is said; "I can't hang out today, but next time, definitely!"

Sure enough, time went by and here I am... no new messages from her... no calls... just lonely as shit....

I need some advice, or drugs or just a solution.

I didnt think I made any mistakes but I guess I totally fucked up on trying to get that girl... damn, it sucks super bad.

She's been stuck in my brain since the time I kicked it with her... WHAT DO I DO????

IT KINDA HURTS A BIT.

Understanding

...I have realized it.
I was drinking with my newfound friends from work last night [celebrating America's independence/ the official rape day of the natives/ the birth of the Nigger] and I realized it. My role as a young colored brotha. IF I DONT KNOW ANYTHING, I MUST KNOW UNDERSTANDING. We have gone through so much as a people, we should be able to understand peoples situations and assist them in whichever way possible. We have been to the lowest, therefore we are blessed with the ability to understand. We have been there and back as a people so we know what the worst and best is.
I think that is what has happened, many people have forgotten our past and have gotten stuck, like a deer in headlights, in those "flashing lights".
Well, I am going to keep doing my thing, please my brethren everywhere, stay epic and drop love bombs on everyone!

Oh, i almost forgot, CONGRATS AMERICA. INDEPENDENT SINCE 1776!

Real Talk

IN REAL TIME:

"I'm an eternal being in short-term situations"
-Black Saturn

IM EPIC

Can I talk my shit again??

"You 'gon have to pinch yourself after you in my presence, just to make sure you weren't dreaming!"



Eric Yancy Jr.

Judging is 4 floosies.

I just realized, many people really are shallow thinkers... I was reading some info on someome and they said:

I think first impressions suck and you shouldn't judge someone until you really know them.

I have now realized how horrible that statement was... why judge people? He who is without sin can only do that. C'mon brethren and sistren, lets wash our face and get our minds right... if it matters @ all, I use Nuetrogena!

Maybe when we are waken, we can begin to spread love like violence, by dropping lOvE Bombs everywhere!

Crackertine

I was surfin' on that digital crackwave (facebook) and I never knew that crackertine had such an effect on the people. Check out the answer to this question....

Juice and crackers or milk and cookies?
soy milk and chocolate chip cookies

Im hoping this anwer was stolen from stuffwhitepeoplelike.com, cuz its sheer devilry.
I didn't even know the epidemic was this bad....
[oh shit, brilliant idea, just poppd n2 my head!!!]

Real nigga quotes;

Some people try too hard, others don't try hard enough... who knows what the fuck I do?!

Ohh yea, peep the new shit that i' m on:

Stay Woke

I just woke up [in life, that is], and I realized N.E.R.D. had the alarm ringing since '03.

All you can be is you, cuz ur real, not the plastic type.