The inside

It has been said, "to change the outside you must start from the inside."

Well, I think my life might be taking a turn! Last night I dreamed... and this dream was somewhat different then any dream I have ever had... It had many scenes and different people through out, but there was one thing that was constant throughout. Drugs! lol.

I have this itch and idea that I have not been able to shake, I want a lady friend. Not just any lady... one that, to me, is supra rad. Not necessarily a girlfriend, even though that would be amazing, but a lady whit whom our attraction was mutual.
Since I have never found that yet, and when I realize how old I am and how life moves, I get more and more anxious.... unfortunately its for not.
Lately, well, for the past months I have begun trying to change the things my mind and self yearn for... instead of wanting something so amazing, I have tried to subdue my heart and my feelings.
I begun by saying it; since I haven't found a female to give the world to, ill find something that will always be there for me, and I will give it the world... Let it live through me... can you guess my new love, my faithful, never-let-me-down-till-it takes-me-down love?

----/-------, if you've been reading you already know... (blame the partiot acts and usa news/ misinformation networks for my censorship)

In this dream/s one of the main drives was me connecting with my nuevo-luv. Throughout all of the different scenes, we would be together and I would do it and it would make me do amazing things! It seemed like everything, the plot/ characters and scenes were in the background but my beau was rite by my side... slow dancing to the fast pace of the world.
I didnt even think about ladies once... well, actually there is this one, who I ponder about.. but thats a new development.

Its so interesting, I have said it, now it was in my dreams... I wonder what is next... hopefully beautiful ladies and good times. lol.

It sucks being a romantic in a slow society.... Maybe one day it'll all make sense.

Keep up.

VOTE

Consider me voted bitch! Monday, 11/3/08, I got in line, waited and filled out that form!!!!
When I walked out of the judiciary square building on that cool, tranquil, fall day, to quote Kanye; I was feelin' better than some head on a sunday afternoon (I cant wait to know what that is like!!)/ better than a chick that say yes too soon....

I really live it.

WTF

ask and you shall receive....

Well, what the FUDGE is my steeze???Fudgity-frick-stik. What is my success?

On that note: My life in song



Im fudgin' lost... trying to be found... or maybe find myself...?



Help.

Surroundings: the catchup

I saw some ladies and/or manladies of the nite! It was scary and exciting both @the same time. These times have been soo tragic, and I do really mean tragic, that I am considering the biz.

Also, saw the new show Crash. Pretty interesting, very cheesy characters but they get into interesting situations! When I called it a nite, I had this super intense dream... It was so wild that typing it would do it no justice, [ill save it for a movie]! It was a super sad dream though, fill with miscommunication, realizing responsibility and blood evoking situations. Damn, it was one for the ages.

Aint it rediculous; I went to Yardfest @ HU and when the day was over I was super homesick. Man, I miss my fam soo much.

Being poor and alone... Fuckin sucks. [and, I do mean Fuckin.] Its crazy, I feel it building in my tear ducts, my emotions, they are just waiting for the event that will have them pouring out. It happened when I got robbed and I feel it coming on again... I wonder what its gonna be this time.

Fuck, I need some girls to dig me, singleness is, well one.

Its Only Been 10 days...

AND ALREADY IM WASTING AWAY.

So, I kicked it with this young lady two weeks ago... we were drinking and then she started all this "i like you" talk.
Me, being the gullible guy that I am took her words and believed them.

So she say's we should hang out again...

Now I texted her a few times, cuz u know, nowadays phone calls seem too forward for some...

So, I gotta text back one time and you know what is said; "I can't hang out today, but next time, definitely!"

Sure enough, time went by and here I am... no new messages from her... no calls... just lonely as shit....

I need some advice, or drugs or just a solution.

I didnt think I made any mistakes but I guess I totally fucked up on trying to get that girl... damn, it sucks super bad.

She's been stuck in my brain since the time I kicked it with her... WHAT DO I DO????

IT KINDA HURTS A BIT.

Understanding

...I have realized it.
I was drinking with my newfound friends from work last night [celebrating America's independence/ the official rape day of the natives/ the birth of the Nigger] and I realized it. My role as a young colored brotha. IF I DONT KNOW ANYTHING, I MUST KNOW UNDERSTANDING. We have gone through so much as a people, we should be able to understand peoples situations and assist them in whichever way possible. We have been to the lowest, therefore we are blessed with the ability to understand. We have been there and back as a people so we know what the worst and best is.
I think that is what has happened, many people have forgotten our past and have gotten stuck, like a deer in headlights, in those "flashing lights".
Well, I am going to keep doing my thing, please my brethren everywhere, stay epic and drop love bombs on everyone!

Oh, i almost forgot, CONGRATS AMERICA. INDEPENDENT SINCE 1776!

Real Talk

IN REAL TIME:

"I'm an eternal being in short-term situations"
-Black Saturn

IM EPIC

Can I talk my shit again??

"You 'gon have to pinch yourself after you in my presence, just to make sure you weren't dreaming!"



Eric Yancy Jr.

Judging is 4 floosies.

I just realized, many people really are shallow thinkers... I was reading some info on someome and they said:

I think first impressions suck and you shouldn't judge someone until you really know them.

I have now realized how horrible that statement was... why judge people? He who is without sin can only do that. C'mon brethren and sistren, lets wash our face and get our minds right... if it matters @ all, I use Nuetrogena!

Maybe when we are waken, we can begin to spread love like violence, by dropping lOvE Bombs everywhere!

Crackertine

I was surfin' on that digital crackwave (facebook) and I never knew that crackertine had such an effect on the people. Check out the answer to this question....

Juice and crackers or milk and cookies?
soy milk and chocolate chip cookies

Im hoping this anwer was stolen from stuffwhitepeoplelike.com, cuz its sheer devilry.
I didn't even know the epidemic was this bad....
[oh shit, brilliant idea, just poppd n2 my head!!!]

Real nigga quotes;

Some people try too hard, others don't try hard enough... who knows what the fuck I do?!

Ohh yea, peep the new shit that i' m on:

Stay Woke

I just woke up [in life, that is], and I realized N.E.R.D. had the alarm ringing since '03.

All you can be is you, cuz ur real, not the plastic type.

another again.

Look @ this Epicness:

Youlookgreat2day!

I remember the days i was 2'ing folks and now I surf across this....
If only I could explain. wtf?!

Its amazing bcuz it is. Every1 should know how great they look!

Officially on my Grind!

Today, 4/29/08 @ 2:56 am. I am just getting home from Fly [DC] via the Wale concert @ five. I was doing some footage for the concert and then went to do a little cocktailing @ that young spot they call Fly! The night was pretty good, there was a Darfur event that was attended by yours truly @ G'town. The movie was actually pretty fresh, it had a great message and gave me some interesting ideas on where i can take my film work! I feel I am officially certified to be on my grind. The movie made an awesome point, and I don't want to be one of the individuals that are just clueless after the call has been heard. I want/ need to take action. Unfortunately, this mad world will not become cured itself. Us, people, we are just instruments/tools used in this world. We are here for a reason weather we understand that or not. It is something we must live with and if you were me, you'd better be enjoying this lesson that is being taught with your life. It never pays to keep asking why, unfortunately life don't stop.

Whoa!!!!

wE neEd 2 WAKe uP!

I just so happen to stumble across this blog. Its pretty amazing... at least the 1st half.

LIVE THE DREAM

Maybe that is the message I have been meaning to get but have not realized it?! Something to meditate on... I guess I will just keep following the signs.

The Inspiration: IN THUG QUOTATION

"Any intelligent fool can make things bigger, more complex, and more
violent. It takes a touch of genius -- and a lot of courage -- to move
in the opposite direction."

-Albert Einstein

"Ignorance accepts no argument... so lets just go home!"

-A DC native saving peoples minds

"As long as I open my eyes in the morning [it makes me happy], that means I got another chance to make it..."

-Shakeel

Here's how it went...In my mind!

[thinking][I should check out facebook, attempt to holla' at a beautiful love interest.]

facebook pulls up as I press enter once finished typing the address.

Now, typing in the name, ideas begin formulating for my heartfelt letter.

[thinking][hmmm... maybe I should begin with dearest, that sounds radical! How heartfelt should I make it?]

Profile pulls up....

Shocked, profile pic changed, status changed.

[thinking][bummer, another again]

[thinking][letter idea scratched. damn, missed another one.]

...One day, one day.

O'Drama

VOTE OBAMA '08... I hate to tell the truth but it only makes sense!

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Inspiration

You have just got 2 find that thing that is going to take your mind off the madness of the world. Once you find it, you will be totally better and the world won't even effect your being... YOU will effect the world!

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EPICNESS IS HAPPENING

RITE NOW!!!

Currently I have discovered that this new year 2008 is going to be an astounding adventure. Epicness is happening right now!



I love it, I love it, I love it.